&/ a long and misty way

Sunday, July 31, 2005

@1:37 PM

happybdaymama!

went to play squash in the afternoon..then went out to celebrate my mama's bday.we went kallang theater's restaurant..quite ex.$23.90 for adult..and it's international and seafood buffet..but the food is so limited that we kept eating the same things- oyster, escargot, shark's fin etc..

had a terrible swing when squashing.hai.

nvm. back to topic..ya..eat until very full..the food not very nice though and they dare to charge such an exorbitant price?!

though i'm unreasonable, he still give in to me..

hmm..i've decided le..if can, i will want to take up scholarship and pursue my studies overseas..if not, think i might go ntu coz of its one yr hostel stay. as long as i don't stay in my house can le..shorten the time i'm at home..this may sound very crude but i sometime really bth. it may be just seem to be another remark of his, but it affects me greatly. don't care. don't wanna care. starting to dislike guys. they think they are so damn right and the gers are always wrong. how discriminating is this! wad guys can do, so can the gers!

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Saturday, July 30, 2005

@2:56 PM

i'm glad that i made through this week.=)

long awaited weekends have finally arrived! yippie! this week was an exhuasting one..just had 3 tests in this wk. and 2 of them are in consecutive = 3hrs. poor me. did relatively well for the chem test, though there's still room for improvement..hey. a gd start for chem!

this week is like a rollarcoaster..bringing my emotions up and down, and learn quite alot from it. perhaps mayb i think too much? i supposed. just realised that i do care what others think of me..but not to worry, i won't let it have too much impact on me.=) who cares if i'm an auntie who always tuck my wallet under my arm? ha.

anyway, almost cried just now.. but don't wanna elaborate much on it.=)

so tired and sleepy now.zzzz....tmr going tp to play squash, hopefully. after that will be celebrating my mum birthday at to-be-decided restaurant..hehe.

zzz

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Monday, July 25, 2005

@4:06 AM

sunday.

yesterday went to his house and watch initial D.but in the end also didn't complete it coz the quality real sux + it's in canto + the laptop low batt..so we decided to watch it on wed~ after that went to tp play squash! wee! i won him one match in out of so many games..haha.but nvm.got chen jiu gan. then after that went bathing..hmm..bath in the guys' toilet coz the whole corridor looked deserted.got eerie feeling..so ended up bathing in guy's toilet..he waited outside for me la..( dont anyhow think) haha..then suddenly that's one guy popping out from nowhere..and i've got to hide inside one of the cubicles..hahaha.

after that went to marybrown..the chicken not bad ah..can fight with kfc.but the mashed potato and coleslaw can gnd..haha..

went back to tp again to study...study until...ard 8.30..headed home after eating our dinner..time passes very fast whenever i'm with him..so weird..hahaha...

wee! nx wk is zq de performance le!!.. hope it goes well for them. they are the first band to perform..! and hopefully, sl's mum de friend de salon's opening ceremony is also on nx sun..just realise that 5 more mths to my bday..=)

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Thursday, July 21, 2005

@12:03 PM

w t s

agh! wts wts wts! just show my father my result slip..and he's not contented with it.but i think coz i got 1 F so he kept reprimand me for getting a F..wts man. can't he just praise other subjects?..if can't just shut the hell up.. stupid shit..and he just said that i didn't put 100% in..and commented that i'm distracted by some stuff..and obviously he knows wad's going on..but who cares. if i can make some improvements, he doesn't have the right to interfer wad i'm doing..and he tot that's it's bloody easy to memorise the whole of chem in just less than a mth?..and he don't even know wad i'm studying, didn't even been thru before..and he said me for that?! and i've improved since last yr.. sometimes i wonder y is he like dat..abit sadistic cum niao cum wadever-it-is. and yesterday he just told me that don't talk with guys on phone. WTS! he's bad doesn't mean that the other guys are bad.. if he wanna talk, i can talk to him abt this issue..anyway, i'm always ready to talk to him abt this. no need to use some childish means to convey message to me. 40 plus le still so childish..i really bth! and just now when he was going out with my mum and sis, he told my sis to keep an eye on me..if i talk on the phone, must report to him...hell with him la. feel like scolding the F word..he always assume that he's right..and everybody is wrong..shit him. now i understand y my bro used to so hate him..mayb i shldn't forgive him in the first place..and let our relationship deteriorate..haven't been able to give love since young and wanted to control my lifestyle..wad rights does he have?..fine. he provide all the BASIC needs that i need..ok.i'm grateful to him.

i swear i'll move out when i grow up...

shit him.

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Monday, July 18, 2005

@2:30 AM

yippy.iboughtthemangoshirt

yesterday went to celebrate lt's bday at mp.for more details, please click "shili" at the right column. haha..

after leaving them, went to my friends' chalet at coasta sand..think like abit exaggerated ah..it's not 21 bday..and they make it like 21.it's only 18~ haiyoz..but happy la..caught up with a ger..not very close de..yip. we talked about the past of course..miss the days ah when fooling ard with them! disappointed that xizhen nv go ah...coz her family went m'sia.

the first thing i thought about is the mango shirt. so0o, i "xia ding jue xin" wanna buy the shirt even if i were to visit all mango outlets. and..i almost did it today man..haha..he and i went to all the outlets except for the one at suntec. we never went there coz we didn't know there is one until we saw the pamphlet on the venues.. mango is soooo eheh ah..s0o many outlets overseas ah~ that's not the main point.. we ended buying it from mp.hahaha.the one i saw it yesterday when with lt they all. back to the circle again..the reason y i didn't buy it yesterday is coz they sae the shirt quite big, though it's like s size.nvm..i bought it le~and i think i'll cherish it..coz i fought for it?..hahah.lame la.

think my ahma got dementia le.haiz. saded. guess i've learnt to treasure the ppl ard me le ba..though there's still a long way to go.. sometimes i think i'm quite lucky le..got a wonderful family ( dunno if got "niao" father and a bro that doesn't look like a bro consider as wonderful not) ,terrific him and bestest friends..wad's more can i ask for from god?.. blaming "him" for giving me such a lousy brain, that causes me to work harder than most of the peoople?..haha. nah. shld also thx him ba. if not i think i'm a extremely lazy person, slacking ard..and i think i'll hate that kind of me ba..ok. i'm not that hardworking..=)

hmm..let's see how much chem has got into my head from the clinic..

why are transition elements coloured?

in a free atom or ion, the 5 d orbitals are at the same energy level. however, with the presence of ligands, the obitals are splitted in the different energy levels.during d-d transition, the electron is promoted from the lower energy level to the higher energy level. the electron absorbs certain wavelength of light from the visible region of electromagnetic spectrun and emit the remaining wavelengths, thus causing the the colour observed.

wahed. don't know if i got it correct.but glad that i still remember the bulk of it.haha.

time to study chem!

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Saturday, July 16, 2005

@2:45 PM

don'tcareifihaven'tfinishdoingchem

though i still like have tons of chem haven't done yet, but don't care la. blogging is the priority now. hmm..perhaps it starts off yesterday ba...

yesterday after dinner, my ah ma went back to our room to change her clothes..coz my mum sae her clothes kinda dirty..her mouth is still full of rice when i entered the room..and coz she's buttoning her clothes..the "saliva cum water" kept dripping from her mouth. so, i told her to bite finish first before buttoning..nonetheless, she continued buttoning..that's not the crux yet. after doing her don't-know-what stuff in the kitchen, she came back with a morsel of rice in her mouth. when i asked her abt the rice, she said that she had already spitted it out..then i'm quite stunned by it la..she went to wash her mouth after that..

after this incident, my mood change drastically. it seems that as if my ahma is going soon. (choy!) my tears well up in my eyes when i think about the incident yesterday. it suddenly make me realise that i should cherish ppl ard me..it's not that i dun cherish ppl ard me, it's just that i always cherish the wrong person. dumb me. i can't imagine a person who has been in my life leaving me..she's been staying with us ever since i am born..she tidies the house, cook for us..but yet, i always treat her not very well..not not very well la..just that, she "zhong nan qin nu"..then always nag at me la..then yesterday came up with a conclusion that, mayb i shouldn't be close with anyone from now onwards (including him ba), beside my family, so that next time i won't have to bear more pain of having my loved ones to leave me. but i know this is really a very dumb solution la.

then just now my ahma asked me not to switch on the fan during night..coz today when she woke up, her mouth was shifted to the side ( this may sound abit..ehhh...). my mum told me that it's a sign of stroke. this scares me alot..that's explain the strong desire to blog today..

another thing that happened today. mrs low has left mjc. though i'm not taught by her, i just felt like crying at lecture today.. this lead me to thinking of a question which i've thought in the past: " y do we have to part? y can't we stay as it is?" i'm always thinking abt this when there's partings, and this often lead to tears. thinking of sec 4 graduation ceremony, haiz...

time to do some chem le.

i dont wanna her to leave us now. i wanna enter uni, make her proud of me! ='(

lao tian ye, zai gei ta duo yi dian shi jian, hao ma?

wo qi qiu, wo qi qiu, wo qi qiu..

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Wednesday, July 13, 2005

@11:24 AM

happy bday kor kor!

aiya.no need to elaborate on my title la.it's obvious.

today after sch went to tm with sl to buy lt's bday present. so pek cek ah. coz dunno wad to buy plus got budget..actually, there's really smth funny happened just now..that's y today's blogging is a must- must. it goes on...

coz we were at level one de metro and decided to go to missha after buy fasio..we had been shopping like since 5 plus to abt 7 plus?..walking here and there, thinking wad to buy..our energy were depleting real soon. missha was at third floor..i tried to walked out of level 2 of metro to missha, just then sl reminded me and said :" wo xiang ni hai shi hui jia sui jiao hao le" after she finished her words, she's heading towards the escalator which was coming down from the third level to the second..hhaha! we laughed like hell after that man..

we bade each other gdbye after buying all the barangbarang..on my way to interchange, saw ron and his gf. wad a coincidence!

his gf is a all rounder i guess..plus quite pretty also.veri skinny too..haiz. make myself inferior nia~ but after i reached home and saw my mama working (as usual), it brings me back to the reality..we may be different from each other..but i guess there's unique smth inside us that make us special..it always make me so sad to see my mama work so hard..mayb that lead me to be niao/ thrifty?..(ok la.mayb abit nia.) i'll get over it soon..=)

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Tuesday, July 12, 2005

@11:41 AM

lan se de monday..

few days never blog le~ sl was complaining to me.haha. today was quite happy ah.dunno why also. me and joyce was quite high during lesson, and we lame alot. oya oya!! gd news ah. going hongkong with joyce next yr!! ard april i think..wahaha! going for abt 7 days i suppose..we shall explore the whole hongkong..step every soil, touch every corner.waha! actually i was suggesting stay at her dad's place ( u see, her dad is a hk-er), but she said that coz her father live in shenzhen, so will be quite difficult to cross over hk, considering the time to travel and the fees. acutually wanted to go like ard jan or feb, but she sae hk there will be selling winter's clothes..ha.dumb me. yeap. and of coz , there's disneyland!! weeee~ so excited abt it~ oh man!

just read someone's blog..can't help feeling sad for her too..haiz.though i dun really treasure our friendship ( it's coz of the past la), i still feel sad for her. wanna help her out of this shit. mayb it's coz she consoled and listened to me before when i'm down. but things b/w us are not the same as before, mayb even worst?..how i wish i haven't read hers. i'll pray for her anyway.

yes ah. today has my bg!~ wee! long awaited one wk finally has arrived.

got back my phy. D. not really satisfied, coz i aim for a C..but nvm. there's improvement.=) joyce did quite bad for this mid yr. i'll pray for her math too!

this sat celebrating 2 friends' bday- liting and shuxian. will be going kbox in the afternoon to celebrate lt's and night for sx's..quite a long time nv see sx and xi zhen they all le. haha.btw, they were my sec 1 kakis..though we different streams, we still very close..mayb not with shuxian..but definitely with xi zhen.she's my pri sch friend..=)

eheh sl.this is quite long hor.

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Friday, July 08, 2005

@11:41 AM

hah.some neoprints~

haha.still doing gp now~ some pic for u ppl~

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Thursday, July 07, 2005

@8:41 PM

xu chun mei la huh..
taken by me!

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@8:41 PM

cheezz..~ my mouth so big seh.=x
taken by me!

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@8:41 PM

wee..i'm flying~
taken by me!

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@8:40 PM

haha.this is the lousy machine that i talked abt..hmph
taken by me!

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@8:40 PM

took it on bx's bday...did i post this earlier on??
taken by me!

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@8:39 PM

hmm...took it quite long le ba, since debby is in the pic. wonder how is she le~
taken by me!

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@3:10 PM

kanna con by my mum!

as i was saying that i'll be getting a free phone from samsung, it's totally off..agh! kanna fake by my mum. can't imagine that she couldn't even comprehend simple english. hmm.mayb shldn't blame my mum too much..coz her english is like : today i brought fiissshes and vegitables. lol! how crude am i~ but true la, anyone will burst into laughter the moment she opens her mouth. =)

guess that also explains for my poor english.=( god's unfair. my eng is like shit, but my bro is like..without preparing also can get B. haiz.i got all the bad genes while my bro got all the gd ones. hmph.then isn't my sis the worst? nah nah. it turns out otherwise. better than me i predict.

went to his house first before heading centerpoint. saw his bro, but he doesn't seem as happy as before le hope he will be happier ba~
on our way back, there were vjc choir ppl giving public performance..and there's a old man, whom is begging for money, in the center. so logically, those vjcians must be helping the old man to get more money i guess. was rather touched by the scene.

now still struggling with gp de qn. haiz.

10mth01day

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@8:53 AM

mind you, 8 more wks to prelim!

haha..as suggested from my title..it's 8 more wks to prelims~ all the teachers are talking about this for the whole day!! omg. shit man.

yesterday went out with joyce to catch Mr and Mrs Smith. not very bad that show. at least i understood.haha~ but it definitely couldn't be seen in real life. went to take neoprint after that. the machine real kns...hey ppl. dun ever use actioncity's machines..i mean the one right behind and it costs $9 that one~ the effects really like shit..actually wanted to demand a refund de..but i too humji le..=x

got back my gp paper 2 le. expected- fail. haiz. but nvm la. i'm not sad, just worried. hai hai hai. think i got the lowest in class=(

today got back my chem paper 1. 17/40. (did u notice that i didn't state the marks for gp?..coz it's too lousy le.haha) hmm..ok la..also didn't expect much. coz didn't really study for it~ [hatechem]

mr wong forced us to stay in school until 5 pm everyday.wts. but i know he's doing for us + really must force myself to study chem.

my gp qn that is due this fri : how far would an education system that is flexible and varied contribute to an education worth having.

wts.

oya. today is 10th mth anni. =)

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Monday, July 04, 2005

@5:10 AM

exam's out!

wahed.actually wanna blog since thurs when i'm at sl's house..but in the end went to play this game: http://www.albartus.com/motas/ hey, it's damn cool, alright? go try it la.

kinda wasting my time now la..coz holiday for 4 days?..so sian until i dunno wad to do also..

yesterday went out with him to buy my bro's wallet. $68.40 !! actually my budget is $50 de..coz last yr he bought a $59.90 de wallet for me..so must buy him back also..but all nice wallets are too ex..or all the not so nice wallet are kinda cheap..so bo bian ah..must increase my budget..

went waterfront after that. hao xiang lian na li. talked abt my papa too..he asked my to treat my papa better..i know. i'm trying. if not y did i buy the cake for him..then it's like he dun really know or care about how i feel..sometimes, somethings are better to be left as it is, right?.. the more he ask me to treat my dad better, the more i'll think abt the past. Those two images kept appearing in my mind that i cried on our way back. mayb is pms ?.. feeling veri pek cek for the past few days..haiz.

my hp was sent for repair.wahah. i'm getting another free one. coz that guy sae that my hp cannot be repaired and samsung is giving me another coz it's still under warranty. wee! ppl can't find me for the nx 10 or so days??..hehe.

i'm just wondering. do u guys believe in everlasting love? =)

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