cremated.

zzz at 6 am plus. woke up at 12 pm when the blaring music troops woke me up. went back to wash up myself before heading back to the same place to have one last look at my ah ma. headed to the monastary where they have my ahma cremated. :'( while kneeling on the floor. felt so paiseh. coz like no one is crying except for me. i tried to control and hide my face la...

went to this vegetarian hall to have our lunch. coz we have 8 tables ma, so it's like each family will take one table. my family and i sat together la. but i cried the moment we started eating. coz normally when we have family meal, ahma will always be there de. but today, she's not there. i felt super weird and the fact that she's gone forever really hit me. i jus couldn't control myself. tears jus rolled down. papa mama tried to an wei me la. i pulled myself up coz it's really paiseh when everyone is eating hungrily. ahma will not be having meals with us le. guess i need time to get used to the fact ba. :(

i get irritated very easily these days. don know y. i can't seem to focus on the things that i'm doing. sigh~

saw this quote while at the monastary.

"Death is a mirror in which the entire meaning of life is reflected."

don really understand though. some ppl say that death is jus a begining of new chapter of life. but wad abt the ppl that the dead left behind?

i can't imagine myself zzz-ing in the room alone.


sigh.

♥ how will my journey be like?

Jenny
19.20.
NUS.CSC.
my travel blog


`wishlist*
freedom.think i have enough alr.
21.idonwanagrowupanymore
dad's good health.
おまもり.
camera.
日本.
Tomato Can's bag.
nus.
7D6N to hk with sc.
japanese.
mp3 player, again.
fossil "princess" watch?no more le. but i've got a replacement le.=)
running shoes.
new pair of spectacles.
japanese dictionary.
NOC. i'm back!whee.
ballet.


`hall of places*
waterfront
ikea
E2 IT cluster

`resolns/2006*
>enter unii'm officially admitted.
>enter navy idon'twannagoNavyanymore
>save $3000 by the end of yrcan hor!jus that i went to withdraw=x
>pass my jap exami passed~ yeay!
>i-can't-say-this this one i don think so.=(

`2007
>don't look back.look forward
>pass jap exam,again
>pull up my CAP

`2008
>pass jap exam, again
>pull up my CAP
>spend more time with family
>知足
>exercise once a week

`2009
it's over already. amazing how time flies

`2010
to be updated soon

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jialiang
eliz
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ying2
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zin
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michelle
koyak
`ninjaturtle*
zoo
siahjen
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en ren
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