rest in peace

i didn't get to see her the last time. the last time that i saw her was on last sun, when my family and i, excluding her, went chinatown.before we set off to our destination, mama da bao porridge for her, in which i shared with her. that was the last time. the last time i saw her.

perhaps to many relatives or even my family, her death was quite relieving. they don't have to call and ask how she is etc. my mama don't need to clean her everyday, feed her or even sit in the toilet with her. no more diapers, no more screaming, no more washing of soiled mattress, no more her.

Still remember that time when her health started to deterioriate, i prayed to God silently, wishing that she could pull through that period of time. With that, i'm determined to enter university for her sake. that's the least i can do for her. though all my 19 years, she didn't treat me that good, but she's the one whom i've slept in the same room from the day i was born afterall. she's the one who i'll squeeze into her bed when lightening strikes in the middle of night. the one who i'm relieved that she's in my room after watching a horror show. the one who cooked delicious meals for the family. the one who always wake up at the dawn of the day to clean the house. the one who always throw my things away, leaving me in anger. the one who cares abt everyone, except me.

despite all these, she's still my ah ma.


from now on, my family has only 5 members.


i'll miss her.


life still goes on.


i'm alright.

♥ how will my journey be like?

Jenny
19.20.
NUS.CSC.
my travel blog


`wishlist*
freedom.think i have enough alr.
21.idonwanagrowupanymore
dad's good health.
おまもり.
camera.
日本.
Tomato Can's bag.
nus.
7D6N to hk with sc.
japanese.
mp3 player, again.
fossil "princess" watch?no more le. but i've got a replacement le.=)
running shoes.
new pair of spectacles.
japanese dictionary.
NOC. i'm back!whee.
ballet.


`hall of places*
waterfront
ikea
E2 IT cluster

`resolns/2006*
>enter unii'm officially admitted.
>enter navy idon'twannagoNavyanymore
>save $3000 by the end of yrcan hor!jus that i went to withdraw=x
>pass my jap exami passed~ yeay!
>i-can't-say-this this one i don think so.=(

`2007
>don't look back.look forward
>pass jap exam,again
>pull up my CAP

`2008
>pass jap exam, again
>pull up my CAP
>spend more time with family
>知足
>exercise once a week

`2009
it's over already. amazing how time flies

`2010
to be updated soon

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