Ethelonter IV - Secret Pal

Ethelonter IV is finally over.

think i better start blog before I forgot all the feelings that i'm having now.

we started planning E4 at the begining of this year. and after months of hard work, camp is over. felt werid. don know y also.

still remember clearly at the start of the year when i was frantically looking for my assistant until tiong wei recommended runyan to me. coz at that time can't really find someone to be my asst, and kris say it would be better if i had a male asst. didn't think much on whether runyan could do a gd job, or could help me...coz i tot that sp isn't a very different programme to do, until the integrating thingy came in.

remember our first meeting is outside clubroom, where he was with his rag ppl~

and our next meeting is at kuok foundation lounge where we discussed about our prog.

there was a long period of time where we didn't do anything la. jus put sp on hold first~ and he's always MIA from meetings and gatherings. and he got real busy that i really don know wad to do and started to do all the stuffs by myself.

and i started to grumble to ppl about sp and him. questions like "y i got this kind of asst?", "y am i in e4?" etc started to gather in my head. there was a period when i really hated sp and e4. and got the get-over-and-done-with mentality~i know it's really bad to have all these feelings, but i really can't help it at that time. sigh.

it was really tough during the camp, coz me and runyan had to stay up real late like 4-5am every nite to read all the postcards and do all the sortings. during the last nite which is the integrating nite with memories, i was really darn tired that i fell aslp while reading the postcard and waiting for runyan. and i zzz till morning..and got the oh-shit-i-haven-read-finish-the-postcard feelings. and really tot i'm in trouble. but but, never would i know that runyan had finish reading all the postcards and gave out to the KCs and AKCs. made me feel guilty of all the negative thoughts about him. not only that, he's small small actions also made me feel guilty too. for eg, coz i'll always have my dinner after sp session. and during the last nite, which is also the integrating nite, he helped me take my dinnerbox, which i didn't ask him to, and tot that i haven had my dinner.

after sp revelation, had a mixtures of feelings. don know if it's happy, sad, excited etc.. cried quite long too. coz it's like think after e4 i wouldn't get a chance to work with ry le. (i know u guys would be thinking that it's contradicting~ but i don know also!!!) coz our cell quite different from others. other cell is they know each other beforehand, i knew ry coz of sp.

Although i used to swear and curse about e4 and sp, but still really 舍不得 everything. 舍不得the days when i have to chase after ry the stuffs that i need, 舍不得 not nagging at him, 舍不得 the days that i msn/sms him, he took years to reply,舍不得the days when he don understand wad im talking about and had to keep repeating myself, 舍不得 cannot grumble about sp and him.

shit, tears are forming in my eyes again. ='(

♥ how will my journey be like?

Jenny
19.20.
NUS.CSC.
my travel blog


`wishlist*
freedom.think i have enough alr.
21.idonwanagrowupanymore
dad's good health.
おまもり.
camera.
日本.
Tomato Can's bag.
nus.
7D6N to hk with sc.
japanese.
mp3 player, again.
fossil "princess" watch?no more le. but i've got a replacement le.=)
running shoes.
new pair of spectacles.
japanese dictionary.
NOC. i'm back!whee.
ballet.


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waterfront
ikea
E2 IT cluster

`resolns/2006*
>enter unii'm officially admitted.
>enter navy idon'twannagoNavyanymore
>save $3000 by the end of yrcan hor!jus that i went to withdraw=x
>pass my jap exami passed~ yeay!
>i-can't-say-this this one i don think so.=(

`2007
>don't look back.look forward
>pass jap exam,again
>pull up my CAP

`2008
>pass jap exam, again
>pull up my CAP
>spend more time with family
>知足
>exercise once a week

`2009
it's over already. amazing how time flies

`2010
to be updated soon

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