tadah! a heart folded by my sis being placed on top of my lappy! and inside she wrote that she spent a long time folding it~ so sweet right..

and the nx morning, i found 1 saga seed on my bed. the saga seed was supposed to be inside a glass container with all the hearts folded by me long long time ago de. so that's where she learnt how to fold a heart. hahaa!

ok. and yesterday i went to my aunt shop to choose some presents..coz she said she wanna give me! so shuang~ so i went to her shop to choose my present! got a shorts and a bag~ so nice of her..and while browsing her shop, chanced upon a eeyore hp pouch..and i told my sis that it's very nice..and she knows that i like eeyore..

then later in the day, my sis called me from my aunt's shop and ask if i want the hp pouch, i replied her by saying that i'll take it if it's free..coz it cost like 8 plus. and being a niao me, i definitely wouldn't buy larh, coz i also nv really use hp pouch de. tt's y my hp so cui now~

okay, that was yesterday. as usually, since it was my off day, i got back home quite late also, didn't get a chance to talk to my sis...

and today, went out after my work.. and sis called me to ask wad time am i coming home.and said that she got something for me..aiyah, as usual, i don care wad she say de even if she ask me to come home earlier. hahahaha.

and when i got home, i found 2 present on my table..

one of them if from my sister!! the other oone i don know it's from who..so werid~

and i opened it....

tadah!it was the hp pouch that i saw at my aunt's shop!

awww.. so sweet. thankew sis!

hais. anyway, i think i'm having pre-twenty-syndrome (P2S). shili asked me out on 24th, although alot of ppl couldn't make it for the gathering..and i said it's okay to not meet me, coz i know she wanna spend xmas with her bf (who doesn't?), and i feel bad she if she nv spend with her bf. and she told me that she doesn't wan me to spend my bday alone. okay, intially i was touched. but after awhile, i feel weird.. feel so unwanted and pitiful.

then the next day, liting called me and ask if i want her to spend my bday with me..but she cuoldn't stay till late, coz she got class gathering.

somehow, i jus feel weird. i know they have good intentions. coz they know i have no one to celebrate with? but jiu shi.. feel so weiird. like i'm a burden to them, a duty to celebrate with me. i don't kknow. mayb it's P2S? or i'm too sensitive?

Then after talking to liting, i told Faith about it, coz we just happened to be talking before liting called me. then i told her about it... and she said i can change my shift on 24th from AM to PM, then after that can have dinner with taka colleagues. when she told me this, i feel werid too. like she's pity-ing me like dat. but i don need her to pity me larh, jus that i need someone to talk to after talking to liting.

but still, this year bday would be a start of my new journey.

perhaps you too.